A little frustrated

Ok so yesterday was my weigh in at Jenny! Its always a little deceiving because I weigh myself in the morning with no clothes and when you go to Jenny you weigh yourself at night with clothes. Therefore there's too much of a discrepancy between what you when yourself in the morning because you haven't has anything to eat or drink and you're not wearing any clothes, but then when you go to Jenny do your weigh in, you've had all your food for the day and you're wearing your clothes so there's always that little bit of extra in there. Anyway it ended up that I lost .8 pounds. Yeah for me!

Then I get home and drink all my water and I put away my Jenny food and label it for the following week and then I Sit down and have my dinner and then I have all my water and then I do Turbo jam cardio party. And then I get up this morning and I go weigh myself and it turns out I gained .6 of a pound! How does that even happen? I want to say that I gain muscle but I don't see that happening and I don't want that to end up being an excuse as to why I gain weight.

But I can't let that get me down so what am I going to do about it? Im going to get up and go down to the pool and swim and I'm just not even gonna think about it and I'm just gonna keep going.

So...this is me

Ok so hi to anyone who might be taking a peak at this.  How are you doing?

So this is my first post.  The first attempt at trying to document my...journey to a healthier me.   I'm writing this to try and keep myself motivated, to keep myself going.  I've tried many times to loose weight and I always end up giving up...not this time, I have to keep myself going!

So what is it you're going to see here?  Well I'm currently on week 2 of Jenny Craig, so I'm sure I'll be posting my trials and tribulations, successes and failures (hopefully more successes...), my quest to exercise and find something I enjoy that I don't get tired of in 2 weeks, and things that make me happy and that motivate me.  I'm not gonna lie, I might have rants and complain sometimes but I'll try very hard to keep the negatives to a minimum!  No one likes a constant complainer, right? Right!

Ok, so before I start with all that stuff....

This is me...

This was taken back in August 2011 in Las Vegas (a friend and I dressed up in costumes to try and entice our favorite band 100 Monkeys to play one of our favourite songs - I was dressed as a nun - she was a school girl...on Freemont Street...in Las Vegas...yea, tourists were actually taking OUR pictures, that was interesting...anyway...)  This is  me, 160lbs, give or take (at least 30lbs too much). 

Really I'm a simple girl who works hard to play hard.  I love to travel and made it to Texas, New York, Detroit, Ohio, Nevada and California last year.  I love music (especially the aforementioned 100 Monkeys, if you haven't checked them out, please do, they are amazing! You will love them, PROMISE!)

I'm a writer, just finished my first script with one of my best friends last year (if you're a producer give me a call! lol) and when I have the time and energy, which isn't as often as I'd like I, I write fanfiction as well.

What else?  I'm owned by 2 cats, both male, Loki and Scorpio, both of whom I get up for in the morning...mostly because they won't let me not get up.  I am obsessed with nail polish, so you'll definitely be seeing some of my posts about that on here!  When I reach my half way goal is when I get to go and purchase my drool-worthy polish from a-England The Legend collection!  She doesn't have that Collection up yet, but if you want to see you can check out the American Supplier llarowe.  They really are beautiful!

So, people ask me...why now?  Why have I started this now...it's not really now though...I've always struggled with my weight.  Always.  But now...Well I'm coming up on a very big birthday...one that terrifies me.  I've kind of stepped back and looked at my life...like where has it gone?  How can I still be fat?  Something has got to change.  I've wasted so many years.  I'm shy, I have a very difficult time talking to anyone because I'm so self-conscious of the way I look.  It's easier not to talk to anyone, because then you don't have to have that imaginary conversation in your mind...The one where you wonder what they're thinking, because you know you're fat, so they know it too.  

So, yeah, big birthday.  I have a cruise in June with 3 of the most gorgeous ladies to the Caribbean with the New Kids on the Block, whom I have loved since I was 6 years old!  Let's face it, I don't wanna walk into that meet and greet and be wondering what Mr. Fitness Danny Wood thinks about the whale-that-is-me lol.  

Basically...I want to be me.  I want to feel better in my own skin.  So, that's why I'm doing this. That and I'm going to have some surgery in April, so less weight on anesthetic is never a bad thing, right!?

So...what is it that I'm doing, anyway?

As I said I'm on Jenny Craig, week 2, with my great consultant Lorraine.  So far so good.  I go for weigh-in number 2 tomorrow.  Last one I was down 2lbs in my first week.

So What about the dreaded "e" word?  Well I have a pool downstairs, so I'm swimming 3 times a week.  And the other days I'm doing the Turbo Jam/Sculpt with Chalene Johnson the other 3 days (I give myself one day off).  I have just ordered the Brazil Booty Lift dvd, so that should be here next week, looking forward to starting that (although I've heard its harder than Intensity, so I'm getting a little nervous lol).  See...I'm not a gym person.  I like things that are fun, like dancing.  I need more than just weights!

So...I guess that's me...in a nut shell.  

What about you?  Are you starting something?  Thinking of starting something?  Wanna get healthier? We can do it together!