Mixed Emotions

So I just finished up with my Jenny Craig weigh in. I'm down another 1.5 lbs! For the first time I feel confident that I can actually stay under 150 lbs. I'm so close to my halfway mark I can almost taste it...1.5 lbs to go! Then another 11 to go!

Ad happy as I am about that I'm a little sad. The surgery that I initially started all this for, was cancelled and now I have to begin the entire process again. It sucks and Im sad but I know in my heart it was the right decision.

With that hard sad news though I cam focus on a few other parts of my life like school and doing some of the things I wanted to do before my very big, very scary birthday at the end of May!

Oh and just one fan girl moment I wanna mention? So I do the Turbo Jam videos 5 times a week and there's this one chick that I'm always watching (cuz, shit Chalene is just too damn fast for someone uncoordinated like me!) her name is Mindy, from Texas who reminds me of my friend Mindy who is also from Texas lol! Anyway I tweeted Mindy from Texas a few days ago thanking her for keeping me motivated and going, which honest to god Cardio Party kicks my ass every single freaking time lol! She didn't tweet back BUT she IS following me! Yea I know, stupid right? But seriously, Chalene Turbo Jam, Mindy and Beachbody have so been a contributing factor in my weight loss and in helping me build, although not perfect, self confidence. If you want to check put Mindy and Chalene their twitter handles are @MindyLawhorne and @ChaleneJohnson. If you ever need motivation these two are definitely perfect for that!

Hope everyone is healthy and happy!

Happy day!

Happy St Patrick's day!

Whew what a day! I just got back from my weigh in...which after last week's devastating .6 lb loss, I wasn't feeling any more confident this week. I got up feeling crampy and bloaty and just genuinely tired.

I got to Jenny and slowly walked ti the giant scale at the end of the hall. It felt like i was on a death march, ever step took forever and all I could see was my enemy staring back at me, getting larger and larger the closer I got. Closing my eyes and stepping up i heard the magic words "you're down a lb!"

That means I am this close to being below 150lbs...so close I could almost taste it!

Next was the 2 month measurement. I wasn't feeling overly confident here either but it turns out I'm down an additional 7 inches. And the part that made me cry? Well I now have a 29" waist! Under 30"! When was the last time I had that?!

So I'm on Day 4 (since I refuse to exercise on Fridays! Fridays are pub night! But for me now its not beer, it's green tea! Plus it was actually patio weather! Patio weather, in MARCH!?) sorry, anyway...day 3 of Turbo Jam Turbo slim. It's 10 days 2 days of cardio party and 1 day of turbo sculpt, repeat. So far so good.

So, to finish up, in honor of St Patty's day, here's a picture of my mani this week. It is one coat China Glaze Outta Bounds and 2 coats OPI fresh frog of bel air!

Hope everyone is happy, healthy and make sure you enjoy a green beer for me! (just don't puke in public places though...eww!)

Full of happy!

This week I reconnected with some great, supportive friends who reminded me I'm really not alone and there are people out there who do, truly care about me. A much needed boost, of course now I miss them and wish we weren't so far away! Sometimes virtual hugs, as great as they are, just aren't enough! Someday, if I ever win the lottery, we're all gonna get together, all of us and have one big ol' party! Lol

I just got done with my weigh in at Jenny and I'm down my biggest weekly loss so far, 2 lbs. Bringing to total to, I think 7...maybe 8.

So the successes of the week...I got this great new workout series called Yoga booty ballet. It is soo fun. If you're looking for a great work put that's fun but not too intense, I would totally recommend this one! There are 6 different dvds so there's a great variety. So far I've done the Light & Easy, Burlesque & bollywood style dvds. Bollywood isn't my personal fav, but it's still cool. Not gonna lie, I suck at them because they are super fast, but it's so fun!

Also, I ran on the treadmill for the first time this week. I still don't love running lol.

I successfully ate out last night with friends. I had a mixed garden salad with chicken. It's a weird salad because in addition to all the other veggies it also had potatoes, a hard boiled egg and dollups of herb goat d
cheese. I ate the egg and 1 tsp of goat cheese and 1/2 the chicken. Apparently that was good. It tasked good too!

I also got rid of some toxic people and situations that were stressing, and quite honestly, pissing me off. It feels so much better, lighter without them in my life. I think this yoga thing might be helping my mind and soul after all, lol.

Hope everyone is staying happy abd healthy!

Worry-wort

I am a worrier. I worry about everything. I worry that my weight loss is going to be derailed by a number of things, most recently, I just started on a new birth control pill. And of course the day that I start it I go look at all the reviews online and they freak me out....have I made the wrong choice to switch? Have I chosen the wring ine ti switch to? Will this cause me to gain weight even though I've been on a similar pull for 10 years? Will I become moodier or depressed? How will that have an impact on my surgery in a month, when they saw depression is also normal post op? And now, of course I'm starting to panic but also telling myself everyone is different. What happened to others wont necessarily happen to me.

So I'm trying to focus on the good. I had a good week last week and despite my scale (which has now been taken away by my Jenny consultant) I dropped a pound.

The gym at my place recently got a tv so it's made using the treadmill much more enjoyable. I started interval training last night and it was the first tome I have actually run. It felt good and Im a little sore today. I also got on turbo sculpt in yesterday so Im feeling pretty good about that.

There was a twitter debate last night during the Oscar awards. Many people were making fun of Angelina Jolie for being too thin. What a turn around. People believe its ok to make jokes about "give that woman some cake!" or the "#feedangelina" campaign. Why is it suddenly ok to make fun of thin people but not ok to make fun of fat people? Why is it ok to make fun of people at all? Why cant we let people feel they want to feel, look the way they want to look? I don't pretend to know Angelina or her weight, but at her height of 5'6" she should be about 110-130lbs. But their are more important things to look at...what is her waist to hip ratio. She may well be very happy and healthy and love the way she looks and feels. Isn't that the important thing? That someone is happy and healthy, despite how they look?

Di people think the "give her cake" comments are any less hurtful than is someone had said "take away her cake" about someone that is fat?

Ok enough ranting! So I decided to post a couple pictures of my Jenny food. The first is my Sat morning treat to reward myself for a great week and motivate me to stay on plan, its french toast with extra berries. Second is lunch, meatball stuffed sandwish and carrots.

Minor successes

So on friday I had my 1 month weigh-in and measurements at Jenny Craig. They differences, especially the weight was not as I had hoped, but still better than nothing!

In 4 weeks I've lost 5 lbs and she 9 inches total! So definitely nothing to sneeze at!

Also on Friday i got my blood tests back and it was how i expected. Low iron and vitamin b12 as well as hypothyroid. With the medication I'm on now i should start to feel better and hopefully the weight will start to come off easier too, since the thyroid controls metabolism. I'm glad to finally know what's wrong with me!

After the horrendous week that was last week, I had a great weekend with a friend. We met in Toronto for some shopping, dining, rest, relaxation and to take in the Harry Potter parody, Potted Potter ( super funny, if you have the chance definitely check it out!)

And because she is the awesomest friend in the world, she brought me some presents! I love love love it all and, if she's reading this, I thank her again!

I managed to stay on track with my Jenny food, bringing with me what i needed for snacks and food. When we went out to Jack Astor's on Sat night, i got the Salmon with steamed rice and steamed veggies. When i ordered i asked the waitress to bring me a take home container right with the meal. As soon as i got my food, i halfed the salmon and rice and ordered a side if veggies and put it in the container for lunch the next day. This way i wasn't tempted to just keep picking at it. It worked out really well.

So that's pretty much it for me. These are my lovely presents!

Hard week

So this week has been a really difficult week for me. My grandmother dying and Valentines day and a release party for the game my boyfriend has been working on for years. There were many temptations and many opportunities to screw up my diet. But, I didn't! I remained strong and determined.

Even at the party yesterday I managed to avoid the copious amounts of popcorn, burgers, corn dogs, cotton candy (it was a carnival type theme) AND open bar! That's right, I didn't even have one drink! In addition I left the party early to make sure i got my daily exercise in!

Also, it amazed me, but I actually fit into a dress I've never actually been able to wear (and didn't look half bad)

We'll see how tomorrow goes, its my weigh in and also my 1 month measurements. I get my blood test results tomorrow morning. Im assuming they found something, since she made me come in to speak with her. Probably just low iron or vitamin b 12. I guess we shall see!

Hope everyone is being healthy and happy!

Feeling down

So as I previously said I've been sick the past week so I really didn't think i lost anything. When i got to my Jenny Craig appointment i was pleasantly surprised to find I'd lost another pound.

Unfortunately, I had another blow this weekend when my grandmother died. I managed to stay on program but it's been rough.

So instead of eating that bowl of ice cream i really wanted, I decided to do something for myself, something that didn't require food. I got my hair and nails done. In honor of both Valentine's Day and the Breaking Dawn Part 1 dvd, I choice Spa Ritual's Break of Dawn. Its a really beautiful red polish with Gold shimmer. It didn't take my mind off every thing, but did help for just a little bit.

Today I had my first round of blood test which wasn't as bad as I feared they would be. I guess with my surgery growing closer I should get used to it! Also, I got a cheap little pedometer and for the 3 hours i used it tonight, I recorded 5,000 steps. Not too bad I think. I still think i need a better one though!